Im ONLY Human...

     Yes I have heard EVERYTHING that SHE has told me and I understand all of HER ups and downs and setbacks; that being said...  Maybe one of the most difficult situations that could possibly come up in life is the severing or dismantling of a personal relationship or marriage.  I get it.  I have been there and done that.  YOU have to decide for yourself exactly what YOU will allow in a lifetime partner and what exactly YOU need and want in life to be truly happy.  Just surviving or co-existing does in no way, shape, or form land anywhere near HAPPY.  I, for the life of me, can't understand how a person will have standards and expectations of what they want in their life and, when it's time to act, fall short of that and convince themselves that it's okay due to the lack of emergency.  We continued to talk and, in my mind, I continued to question HER goals of completely severing HER marriage.  A blind man could see that SHE wasn't happy.  Any self-respecting person couldn't possibly stand for such emotional and mental abuse from a spouse, under no circumstances.  If the plan that YOU set forth isn't going to produce your desired goals in a reasonable amount of time, then YOU need to change YOUR game plan.  I truly care for HER but I am not an idiot; although, actions sometimes prove otherwise.  Not working at all or working part time hours, especially with slightly above average medical needs, will not allow HER to realistically move out on HER own.  So that tells me that SHE has no plans to do so.  I'm not saying that it has to happen over night but there's no plan to chnge it at all.  I would think that a very NECESSARY divorce is important enough to make drastic changes if that is what is required.  Are YOU any closer to divorce and supporting yourself than YOU were a year ago or even six months ago?  If SHE doesn't understand how the way SHE makes HER moves or doesn't make any moves affects someone that SHE claims is special and that SHE loves, then SHE's not living in reality.  It affects everything from how I might react from not talking X amount of days to not sexing for X amount of days.  Or atleast how all of that affects me.  Actions generally speak louder than words.  I put trust into what SHE said and then look up after six months or a year later and NADA.  What is SHE really doing?  Will stuff like that drift into a relationship in other ways?  Of course it will and has.  Possibly the cause of unnecessary disagreements or disputes, possibly the cause of random hurt feelings or possibly the cause of feeling distant or uninterest.  I have had many, many heart to heart conversations about past and present desires and needs, not to mention experiences, and nothing about HER current marriage lines up with anything that SHE wants.  Now throw in the fact that sexualadvances go seemingly unnoticed or with zero response.  NOT so much as a I HEARD THAT YOU WANT ME AND I WANT YOU TOO I'M NOT IN THE MOOD TODAY BUT WE WILL DO IT SOON.  Or SORRY I WAS TIRED AND I HEARD WHAT YOU SAID & I WANT YOU TOO SO WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW?  Things have gone through my mind over and over.  Sometimes not as frequently as others.  SHE told me that SHE wasn't feeling sexual but there were no attempt to solve the problem.  I would think that if YOU were in a DEAD END relationship or marriage and YOU found someone that became special and loved by YOU...  You would do everything in YOUR power to ease anydoubts about YOUR emotional and sexual interest in them or where those two things were focused.

One Bad Apple...

     So we did it!  We met for the first time in our sign-of-the-times relationship.  I enjoyed every minute of it and I am looking forward to the next time.  We have had some disagreements and, to no surprise, they usually centered on HER dead marriage.  It seems so simple.  Walk away from it and start over with a certain freshness and hope for a beautiful future.  OR stay and know that YOU will never be truly happy or loved like you need to be.  Simple!  I had endured a misguided marriage and I gave it a second shot.  As soon as it was over then it was over.  We ended it and it was the best decision.  How sad would it be to be in a relationship and know that you will never be happy?  Not to mention, knowing that you will be cheated on until death do you part.  Anyway, work was getting more familiar and I was finding my way around town a little easier.  We still talked on the phone and skyped.  It was a little different after having met HER; different in a good way.  I really enjoyed the way HER body naturally fit when we were in the cuddle position.  It was perfect! HER curves landed right where they needed to be.  SHE felt really good up against me and in my arms.  I was going to fly HER down to see me right around my birthday.  The fact that SHE was still in the same house with that dumb ass was getting to me.  We opened a new chapter to our relationship yet SHE hadn’t severed all ties with dipshit.  I sometimes wondered how many guys at work he probably told how he was disrespecting HER repeatedly and how many guys at his job either knew or have helped him pull off some of his gutter-fied, dumpster diving, trailer park trashy encounters?  You know most men that accomplish what is thought of as something that most men would love to do have to have to brag about it.  SICKENING!  So naturally I did feel sorry for HER because how sad.  Most of the time, I think that SHE is living in denial.  Somehow SHE thinks because he paid the bills that he needed to pay in order for himself to live comfortably too, She misconstrues the fact that he can be and still is a jackass.  I still had strong feelings for HER but I started to feel that all of my love and desire might have an expiration date if SHE doesn’t wise up and make actually moves to divorce.  Something made HER hesitant and it’s not logic or reality.  I think he must have drilled it in HER head that SHE couldn’t survive without him.  Well I think SHE is a smart woman so there is no way that SHE will stand for that kind of disrespect and outright humiliation.  I tried to help HER remember that SHE was pretty and desirable every chance that I could.  I tried to boost HER self-esteem.  It didn’t take a rocket scientist to know what has happened in HER marriage.  I can tell by the way SHE responds to adversity and how SHE reacts when things don’t go as planned.  PRINCESS I wish I could take all of that hurt away but I can’t.  All I can do is try my best to make you feel good and smile knowing that there is a better way to life.  Some days we talked, SHE would be cheerful and others, SHE would be down.  Ok it was getting closer to our next meeting.  I wanted to go panty shopping with HER if possible and just love on HER.  PRINCESS there is a man that will love YOU, want YOU, and show YOU. 

Come Again.....

     Wow!  I had a great time having some quality face time with my PRINCESS.  I was pleasantly surprised by HER backside.  SHE had always downplayed it to me but I find it quite nice to grab and spank.  I couldn’t and didn’t want to keep my hands off of HER the whole weekend.  After all of that teasing and dirty talk, I was ready for some lovin.  We had some good conversations and laughs just like we did over the phone.  I love the way that SHE kisses and when SHE goes for my neck and ears, it drives me crazy.  So we met and I would have to say that it went better than either of us could have imagined.  Good stuff!  The morning that I was going to leave, we cuddled up and loved on each other until it was time to get ready.  After we got ready and went downstairs to HER truck, we sat there for a little while because we had some extra time.  SHE looked so pretty and sexy sitting in HER seat.  If SHE was trying to tempt me to miss my flight, it was working.  We smooched a little more and then it was off to the airport.  We hugged and kissed goodbye almost at the exact same spot where we had met for the first time.  I called HER after I checked in and traveled to my gate.  I definitely enjoyed my trip and couldn’t wait to see HER again.  I boarded my flight headed back home after our sexy rendezvous.  When I got back home it was Sunday evening.  I found my truck, paid my parking fee, and headed to my house.  I had to work in the morning so I didn’t have too much extra time to spare.  I let HER know that I made it home okay and then I got some rest before falling asleep.  We talked and agreed that next time we meet up, SHE comes to see me.  We were thinking around Thanksgiving which is also around the time of my birthday.  Roughly about every 8 years, Thanksgiving falls on my birthday.  I thought that was cool since I found out.  Where’s this all headed?  I really don’t know right now.  SHE needs to make some firm decisions and roll with them…

Just A Teaser...

     Ah alone in a hotel room at last.  We talked for a while and quickly navigated to the bed.  It was a very nice room.  It had the whole sofa bed kind of thing going on and a nice comfy bed itself.  SHE looked good and I wanted to taste HER.  SHE was showing a lot of cleavage and I was definitely looking.  We migrated towards the bed.  I couldn't wait to kiss HER pouty lips.  It was hot!  SHE really knew how to kiss and I know what I'm doing so sparks were flying.  I love kissing HER.  The way our mouths move and SHE puts HER tongue inside my mouth.  I love sucking and gently biting on it.  I just had to get a handful of HER sexy tits and ass.  It was perfect.  I love making out with HER.  And I kept my word; I spanked HER ass.  Of course I was growing in my pants and I didn't have to know that SHE was wet.  One thing that I am so glad about is the fact that I found out long ago that women found me attractive.  I don't have to beg or ploy for compliments.  I am not saying that I am GOD'S gift but I know, on the average, more women like what they see than the ones that don't.  I love the confidence that I have.  We made out for hours and I couldn't believe that I was actually with my sexy PRINCESS.  It was just like I had imagined.  We got along the same as we did over the phone and computer.  We went out for dinner and then came back to our love nest.  SHE fit perfectly with HER body pressed up against mine.  I loved when SHE laid on HER right side and faced away from me. Mmmmmmmm  HER ass fit right into my crotch and I have long arms so I could wrap them around HER and squeeze on HER big, soft tits.  I told HER to stop wiggling but I really didn't want HER to because it felt so good.  As we lay there, I kissed all over HER back and neck.  I was getting hard as a rock and SHE could feel it pressed up against HER ass....

It's About Time...

         When I woke up, I couldn't believe that today was the day.  I had that wake-up-early-on-Saturday-morning-to-watch-the-cartoons kind of feeling.  I was off work for three days.  I was about to travel to a new place.  And most importantly, I was going to meet my HONEY BUNNY!  Me and that WOMAN have shared so many things and been through a lot together.  Just imagine, about 30 years ago, this all would have been impossible.  No internet, no chat lines, and besides I would have been 10 years old.  Anyway, It was going down.  I got to the airport early and had plenty of time to relax before my flight.  I called HER to let HER know that I was coming.  And YOU better be waiting!  I have been to many airports and some are more confusing than others.  Since I was meeting HER outside, I was hoping that it would be pretty easy to navigate.  I only brought my little suitcase.  I brought some of my pictures and things that I always wanted to show HER in person.  I made sure that I had shaved and cut my hair. I was looking good.  I messaged HER one more time as I was boarding the plane.  See you soon PRINCESS.  I had a connecting flight so it was off the plane again.  The layover was less than an hour so it wasn't bad at all.  Man, I can stretch my legs.  Flying is the only time that I wish I was short.  I feel sorry for short dudes.  I remember one time I was in the checkout line with my little sister.  There was a short dude in front of us and the clerk asked him how tall he was.  I started laughing to myself.  He said he was 5 foot 4 inches.  My sister interrupted and told him no way.  She said that he wasn't even 5 feet.  My sister is tall for a woman and she was right.  I could see the top of his head.  Funny stuff...  I messaged HER one more time and playfully told HER that SHE better be waiting.  When the plane landed, I had a good little hike to get to the baggage claim.  All I could think was the fact that I am going to spank HER ass when I see HER.  I still get a shortness of breath and walking around the airport got me a little bit.  Okay, now that I had my bag, I had to find the way out of this place.  As I was nearing the exit, I called HER and SHE had been parked waiting.  SHE said that SHE was there and just had to pull up to the drop off/pick up area.  I got outside before SHE found my exit so I was standing and looking for HER.  I was kind of exhausted because I didn’t sleep well and because of the flight.  The plan was to go to the hotel room and relax and kiss and grope HER.  Finally I saw HER truck pull up.  SHE parked and got out.  SHE walked around to the back of the truck and gave me a hug and a smooch.  I hugged and smooched HER back.  I was ready to get settled so we were off to the hotel.  We were smiling and talking on the way there.  I thought SHE was pretty and yes they were as big as they were on camera…YAY!  SHE said that SHE knew exactly where it was so that was good.  We got there and went in to check in and guess what?  The desk clerk said that I didn’t have a reservation.  HUH?  I asked HER to please check again under my name and SHE did and nothing.  I stepped back and looked at HER and then looked behind the counter and guess what?  I started laughing.  I told the clerk nevermind.  SHE had taken us to the Holiday Inn and my reservation was at the Hyatt; the other “H”.  We busted up laughing.  My silly PRINCESS…  So we rode over to the right hotel and, as SHE was parking….JERK!  She curb checked me.  I couldn’t stop laughing.  I will never let HER live that down.  I went inside to check in and what do you know, they found me in the system.  I couldn’t wait to get upstairs for more than one reason.  Let's see if YOU are as soft and cuddly as YOU look...mmmmm.  Here we go…

I'm On My Way...

    Okay so we set up a meeting and I was excited.  SHE confided in me that SHE was a little nervous but that is definitely to be expected.  We have been talking for about 4 years and are finally both on the same continent.  Not only that, but we are in a position to meet.  I was still recovering from my illness but well on my way.  I was about 85% recovered.  So I bought my plane tickets and thought about how we would react and what we would do.  I told HER the date and SHE was excited too.  We talked about HER picking me up from the airport and what was best.  SHE wanted to be waiting outside in HER truck.  Hmmm... I must admit that I was a little disappointed only because I thought SHE would want to meet me at the baggage claim.  But I went with it if it would be more comfortable for HER.  I was used to flying so the flight wasn't a big deal to me.  I do hate being scrunched up in that tiny little space.  I am 6 foot, 1 inch so I have long legs and I like to stretch out.  The job was still good and I was making excellent money.   I would really love to be able to write for a living.  I just got to make that happen.  I am still getting used to my surroundings so I don't know how to get around yet.  Everywhere I go, I use GPS.  I would be totally lost without it.  I was all set for my trip.  I made the hotel reservations and I requested the time off work.  Man face to face, skin to skin with my little PRINCESS....  I can't wait.  I had to schedule a doctor's appointment because I needed a checkup.  I didn't feel bad or anything but before I was admitted, I didn't feel that bad either.  I have become more health conscious.  I never was too concerned because I was always out and running and playing sports.  I never had any major issues whatsoever so I had a false sense of resilience and invincibility.  I am so glad that I didn’t need alcohol or drugs to get me high.  The adrenaline rush from competing and from winning was the best feeling in the world.  Well, the second best feeling in the world.  So how is this going to go?  Is she going to get rid of that loser?  It just goes to show that no matter how smart you are, you can wind up in a not so smart situation.  I guess the difference is that if you are smart, then you know how to get out of it….usually.  It would be cool to check out HER state and go shopping with HER for some panties and I need to enhance my wardrobe after leaving so much behind.  To be totally honest, I don’t know if we will even see the outside of that hotel room.  SHE is very lucky to have me so into HER in many ways and I don’t mean that in a conceited kind of way.  I just know that I am a good guy.  After we talked the night before my flight, I couldn’t hardly believe that after these years, no more phone or computer was going to be between us.  I could hardly sleep just like every time I’m going on a cool trip the next day.  I’m going to see my PRINCESS…..

Roll With It...

   So I was pretty excited about setting up a meeting with HER.  SHE has been there for me for several years when I needed HER and many times when I wanted HER.  We have seen each other through pictures and video conversations but this is big.  I can touch HER and kiss HER and see all of HER goodies in the flesh.  I call all of HER assets such as HER tits and ass and little hot box, HER goodies.  My  new job was just as advertised.  It was more laid back and less physical than what I had done in the military.  But, the pay is better.  The area is different than any other place that I actually lived.  It is common here for houses to have basements and I was told they get quite a bit of snow.  I am not too thrilled with the cold so I hope it's not that bad a winter.  Even thought they have bad winters, it was fall yet everything was so green.  I mean green enough for me to notice a difference right away.  I had to find a place to stay.  Although it's just me, I didn't want an apartment.  I wanted to see if I could find a house and I had a month to do it so I should be fine.  My coworkers were okay for the most part so work wasn't a bad place.  We talked as usual and SHE was still sulking from me taking this job instead but no where as bad as SHE was when I first told HER.  We continued getting each other off and videoing.  The meeting was the main conversation.  We talked about doing it in about a month or so.  Still not a word about a divorce.  I still didn't bring it up.  I figured that SHE was like most women and didn't want to be married to a cheater.  I know that SHE is a romantic and has plans of family and love.  I also know that SHE won't be happy and can't really have nor enjoy any of that if SHE has to constantly look over HER shoulder and behind HER back.  Even if SHE tried to overlook the cheating and move forward, the mistrust will eat away at HER and it will end very badly.  I just decided to observe what HER next move would be.  SHE can never enjoy or have what SHE wanted with me until SHE divorces.  Anyway, I found a place and took pictures to show HER and so that piece of the puzzle was completed.  Now we just have to coordinate with each other to nail down a date.  I was going to fly out to see HER this time so I needed advance notice to get the best rate on a plane ticket.  I figured that during the trip we would hang out in my hotel room and talk and laugh and have lots of sexy time.  I was going to grope all over HER.  I love HER assets and I can't wait to play with them...