tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-47560543062286209202024-03-19T13:59:43.293-07:00A Few Screws LOOSEPanther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.comBlogger51125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-86505161903486528522013-05-27T01:42:00.001-07:002013-05-27T01:42:37.419-07:00I Need Approval<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
The more that we talked, the more it seemed like a real relationship. Seemed is the appropriate word. SHE was, after all, still married. That is definitely a fact that, to this point, has made things much more difficult than necessary. I was in no way perfect; however, if you do me right then you have got a friend for life and I will return the generosity. Then, on top of that, SHE seemed to have a yearning fot outside attention. Maybe it was due to a lack of self-confidence or maybe it was due to being picked on or teased or whatever. Something from HER past was definitely lacking. I began to notice that SHE craved attention. Which, in itself, isn't really bad. It all depends on who you need all the attention from that makes the difference.<div>
I remember when you made plans with someone and you headed out to meet them based on what you guys discused and agreed upon. If the person or people that you were going to meet were running late or something came up then you would find out after you arrived and were waiting. I also remember when gas stayed around 90 cents to $1 a gallonbut that's a different story. In this day and age of the internet, cellular phones, twitter, instagram, and texting, everything and everyone is at your fingertips. None of these things are bad in any way but people can choose to use them in a mannerthat is detrimental topositive things and the relationships going on in their lives. So SHE loves attention. Thathas been an ongoing observation. It could be harmless or it could show a gravitation towards a negative element. I will watch and see. SHE would always post provocative pictures and such and wait for comments or 'likes' from guys. Naturally that was a little offsetting to me so naturally it caused a few arguments between us to say the least. I mean it's not like I didn't tell and show HER that SHE was pretty and desirable. I basically found it in bad taste. I just couldn't relate because I didn't need that from strangers. Of coursr hearing from that special someone is a good thing. I'm attractive and I grew up knowing it but I guess everyone is different; I guess????? Nevertheless, we continued to talk. I wish SHE had more respect for HERSELF and the possibility of something between us. Since the 'incident' that included dumb ass, a gun, the cops, jail time, lawyers, and blood, and no I'm not making this up, SHE still hadn't dropped the bum. Very disturbing! Whenever I would bring up him habitually cheating on HER, SHE would say something like is that all like it was insignificant. DENIAL DENIAL DENIAL. He would have to do something more drastic to slap HER in the face; I guess. SHE is just prolonging the inevitable. I was coming from a place of true friendship and I also liked HER more than that but we had just started exploring the possibilities...</div>
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Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-53432713070990145552013-05-15T18:02:00.001-07:002013-05-15T18:02:32.860-07:00Do You Question Yourself??*<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
When making life altering decisions, it's nice to have input but you are your own person. I mean... if you dont belive me, then look at the people throwing out advice. Have they made wrong decisions??? Were they wrong about someone that you know??? Maybe evenpraised someobe that wasnt worth a shit because they didnt have ALL of the facts. Thats why I make my own decisions when it comes to MY life! Thays not my friends' nor familys' role; they are there to support me....PERIOD! IM a simple man... I will do everything in my power to help and support you. All I ask is to not be disrrspected in any way. I shouldnt even have to ask but... Heres a good gauge of whether or not you should do something; would you be mad if your significant other did the same thing? <br />
Between us there were ups and downs; a lot to do with HER situation; I mean SHEwas living with another man. You can downplay it all you want but the fact remains. And it takes trusting solely what the other person tells you. Would you even believe what you are saying??? You must think what if this was done to me before you act or make a major decosion that will affect your significant other. Unless, of course, you will die if you dont. <br />
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I was giving HER the benefit of the doubt but I had both eyes wide open. Is SHE telling the truth??? Can SHE handle a relationship with no gimmicks, no other games, and no ther dudes??? Simply meaning will SHE do something that SHE knows that will OBVIOUSLY cause issues??? If there is ABSOLUTELY no other way then of course that understandable... with No OTHER way. Does SHE want me??? Does SHE respect my wishes or is it a game or just some other unrealistic fantasy that SHE developed through a sutreal marriage??? Hmmmmmm... I dont know. Do YOU???</div>
Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-23618081214281952332013-05-11T15:43:00.001-07:002013-05-11T15:43:50.340-07:00Ho Hum, Drop The Bum...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
More time passed and, by this time, I was getting disenchanted with life changing things that SHE said that SHE was going to do or needed to do, and still made no attempt to accomplish. It was like a lot of HER thoughts and beliefs, of what would or could possibly happen in the demise of HER destructive marriage, were very unrealistic. Like... The fact that SHE was actually believing and telling me that SHE was thinking about being roommates with dumb ass during and after their divorce and live in peace and harmony under the same roof. I know a bunch of those unrealistic expectations and plans were driven into HER head by HER not so mentally there husband. After all, he thought that SHE should be cool with him fucking any skank that wanted to just as long as he said he had no feelings for the whore and he said I'm so sorry and will never do it again each time. Any way, we had been around one another enough to know that it could work if in fact SHE loses the dead weight. So let's see. I am being very cautious especially since SHE did take him back after the average woman would have told him to go fuck himself with a broom and get lost. We continued talking and building on an already solid friendship.<br />
I had come a long ways by this time, health-wise, and I had no major complaints in life. I have been fortunate and BLESSED enough to have both a strong will and a strong resolve. Dumb ass had the type of job where he would be gone from home for several days at a time. When he was home, SHE would be limited as to when or even how long SHE could talk. Why??? Because SHE was too scared to make a move. Partly HER own fault and partly because of the mind games that he played with HER. He beat it into HER head that SHE is and will be absolutely nothing without him. I even come to find out that he would come try to crawl into bed with HER when he came home from work. Sometimes he would sleep on the other side of the bed or in the same room. But, of course, they hadn't had sex in over a year, SHE said. Say WHAT? All of those indicators are definite speed bumps in the path to complete togetherness between HER and I. Let's just see what happens. My momma didn't raise no fool! For now, nothing truly serious can come...</div>
Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-25762861275918481862013-05-10T16:43:00.002-07:002013-05-10T16:43:50.937-07:00HUH.......?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
... I thought it was bad enough that SHE was still married and living with the dude, and I use that term loosely, but SHE wanted to and continued to add more drama to the mix. If I am wrong and living wrong, according to my own standards, then why would I do things that I know are going to create chaos and more drama.......? How do I know you ask? Because I know who I am talking to and they have done their part by communicating to me numerous times the things that bothered them. At this point, can I really complain if I know where they are coming from??????? More to come........</div>
Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-76982545028184988682013-04-12T17:16:00.000-07:002013-04-12T17:19:25.053-07:00Act Like You Do Or You Won't Have It...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It is cool that we have quite a few similarities in our upbringing. One that I enjoy is our appetite for some of the same basic foods. I like my meats well-done and, of course, since SHE is with me, SHE likes HER meat well-done too! Correction, SHE better ONLY like mines! Ha, just joking; not really but... I had to buy ALL of my household supplies and appliances and everything. You should read up and catch up on RickysNewBook.blogspot.com to get the whole scoop on that situation. So we were definitely working with the basics. Even chilling on the ole air mattress at the time. When SHE started hanging out with me, in the flesh, I noticed a physical attribute that somehow escaped me during all of our Skype sessions. I know SHE had two of the bounciest, softest, and nicest milk jugs around cause SHE can't hide them. SHE better not hide them around me; however, there is a time and place for everything. I like playing with HER by giving them some of the most male chauvinistic names. I will share more names with you later. When SHE slept with me...<br />
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"Damn! What is that?" I asked.<br />
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"What? What's wrong?" SHE asked.<br />
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I couldn't hold in my chuckle cause I was so excited.<br />
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"Mmmm, look at that cute little caboose!" I said.<br />
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"Caboose?" SHE asked.<br />
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"Yeah. I thought YOU always said that YOU didn't have one? And YOU are wearing those cute panties. I love that light brown ass!" I explained.<br />
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"Why were YOU holding out on me? That is YOUR secret little weapon," I said.<br />
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I knew exactly why SHE didn't realize what SHE had. Dumb ass never took the time to tell HER or I doubt he even cared. Who cares? I have some goodies to play with...</div>
Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-37022091321466002612013-03-24T18:21:00.000-07:002013-03-24T18:23:19.408-07:00Chez Ricky...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
So...she arrived around the time I had expected HER. HER flight was on time and I definitely appreciated that more than anyone will ever know. I had planned for us to possibly cook Thanksgiving dinner together and chill out and enjoy each other's company. It was also my birthday weekend so I was looking forward to no drama and a very cool relaxation. After all that I learned that SHE had been through, I didn't expect HER to want more drama and complications. My feelings were growing for HER naturally since we talked and sexed each other a lot; whether it was phone boning or not. Hopefully, SHE can get rid of that loser once and for all. Then, we can find out what the future holds for us. Until then, we are kinda in limbo. Now we could rush and not play it smart but where would that get us? If SHE doesn't drop dumb ass then nothing will ever work between us and that's just speaking realistically. I have been very patient and more accommodating than you could possibly imagine. Ever since the blowout about 6 months ago between HER and dumb ass this is an absolute no brainer. Let's see how fast SHE totally separates from him and moves on. <br />
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"Hello, how was your flight?" I asked as I gave HER a hug.</div>
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"My flight was okay but I am glad to be off of that plane. How are you?" SHE asked.</div>
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"I'm good. Let me get that for you," I said.</div>
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"So what would you like to eat for dinner?" I asked.</div>
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"It doesn't matter to me; something good," SHE replied.</div>
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"Not tonight. I figured we would grab something on the way back home if that's cool?" I explained.</div>
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Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-82536414931207058302013-02-26T16:13:00.000-08:002013-02-26T16:13:21.880-08:00One and ONLY...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Even remembering as far back as my childhood, Thanksgiving was a good time. My MOM and my older sisters always hooked up some great food. The holiday itself lands on the fourth Thursday in November so the date changes from year to year. One of the most special things about it, is the fact that Thanksgiving Day lands on my birthday about every six years or so. Even though we had a big dinner, we would still make the rounds. We would always visit my Grandmother's house and act a fool with my cousins. Then, we would go to my Great Aunt's house and cut up there too. Needless to say, we always had fun and went back home full. Mmmmm, sweet potato pie! <br />
It was the day before HER flight and I was excited. We had already met so I knew more or less what to expect. SHE was due to land in the early evening so that was cool. I'm looking forward to see how SHE acts more and more. I mean the real HER; not the I'm trying to make a good impression cause I like you HER. SHE called me as SHE was boarding the plane.<br />
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"Hello, YOU ready for your flight?" I asked.<br />
"Yesss! I'm actually walking to the plane right now," SHE replied.<br />
"Kool! Well, I hope you have a good and safe flight. I will be there when YOU land," I reassured HER.<br />
"You better be. Thank you and I can't wait to see you. I will call you before I board my next plane," SHE said.<br />
"Alright. See you in a few hours. Bye!" I said.<br />
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If we are gonna be serious in the future, then SHE is gonna have to totally drop that dumb ass. Of course I could just have HER around for a piece of ass every now and then but that's not what I'm looking for; never have. My last relationship was kinda screwy so I really didn't want a repeat. A few unexpected things popped up like she had a couple of kids that she didn't mention, which wasn't the kicker. Her head wasn't on too tight and more. Being around HER should tell me a lot. We shall see. I'm open to different things but I need a one man woman. I know what SHE has told me but ACTIONS mean the world to me...<br />
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Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-91456374006881692212013-01-26T15:23:00.000-08:002013-01-26T15:23:48.680-08:00Happy Thanksgiving!!!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
So it was official, the week of Thanksgiving was to be our second meeting. Thanks to Skype, we had logged many hours of video chat together. SHE was flying in and I was gonna pick HER up at the airport. I just recently moved here and the place that I was renting didn't have a stove. We had decided that we were going to cook Thanksgiving dinner together so I bought a stove. Before, it was never too important because I am a bachelor and I eat out more often than I'd like to admit. Don't get me wrong, I like to cook but cooking for one sometimes feels like overkill.<br />
Yes, you guessed it, I went ahead and ordered some hot panties from Victoria's Secret and they were waiting on HER cute little ass. I was looking forward to talking, laughing, and cuddling with HER. I decided to call HER up the day that I received my "package" cause SHE was on my mind. <br />
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"Hello," SHE answered.<br />
"Hello Brownie. How are you doing?" I asked.<br />
"I'm good. It's almost someone's birthday," SHE added.<br />
"Yeah... Are you ready for your flight?" I asked.<br />
"Yes I'm excited! Do you remember what time my flight lands?" SHE asked.<br />
"Of course I do and I am gonna be waiting outside in the parking lot when you arrive," I joked because when I went to see HER, SHE was outside.<br />
"You're funny. You better be waiting for me," SHE said.<br />
"Yeah, yeah , yeah... I hear you. Hey I bought a stove so if you want to cook, we can," I told HER.<br />
"Cool! Do you still want to cook?" SHE asked.<br />
"Hmmm let's see. Guess what?" I replied.<br />
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"Black Santa came by. He's a crazy guy," I said.<br />
I have always played with HER like that saying Black Santa came to let HER know that i got HER something; I mean that he did. Why Black Santa? Well, you know...<br />
"What color panties are you wearing?" I asked.<br />
"Let me see. I am wearing those cute blue leopard print ones," SHE said.<br />
"I wanna see. Send me a pic," I said.<br />
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There are several of the ones that I got HER that make me horny when I see HER in them. I loved getting pictures of HER in cute panties. They all looked good but sometimes SHE catches just the right pose that makes me wanna bone HER. Mmmmm... the way those panties fit HER. I can't wait til SHE's here...</div>
Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-3442036744785945872013-01-25T17:09:00.000-08:002013-01-25T17:09:46.076-08:00Friend or FOE???<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
So that was the MEETING and it went as good as it could have possibly. I definitely wanted to meet again and see what might be. SHE is very inconsistent! When i say that I mean SHE likes me one day, then for no apparent reason, has a bad day and takes things out on me. I think because SHE is scared to attack the SOURCE of HER problems. I have done nothing but try to help HER and make HER feel good in every way. Maybe SHE takes that for granted....I don't know. So we continued to talk. We continued to have sexy time on the phone too. I really enjoyed that with HER and I think SHE did with me. I say I think because SHE would deny me and make up excuses not to play. The way I see it, if you are not feeling it and you know the other person is, then you should definitely cash in that rain check. The other person shouldn't have to beg to show you affection. Eventually, that will sour our sexy time. I tried to explain to HER how I felt and SHE just downplayed it or ignored it all together. I wonder if SHE will notice when, because of HER changing, our sexy time and life changes? I wonder if SHE will blame me? We were planning our second meeting for around the time of my birthday which happens to land near Thanksgiving; some years it is Thanksgiving Day! Every time SHE had a bad day with jerk off or SHE got hassled by anyone else, I was there to talk to HER until the wee hours and let HER know that it was alright. All I have ever tried to do is make HER feel better and special. I was very sexually attracted to HER but after being turned down, for even phone play, that feeling starts to fade a little. Why would a woman not want to be desired? Oh well... I picked out some more cute panties that i know SHE would look good in. When you are there for support, even when you are busy at work, and care about someone's well being, it's a slap in the face when they complain or take their bad luck out on you. I'm NOT perfect but I dare you to find better! Thanksgiving is coming and I am excited to see HER. SHE is coming to me this time so I want HER to be comfortable and enjoy HER time here...</div>
Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-69362132073011208532012-08-27T14:55:00.003-07:002012-08-27T15:00:10.609-07:00When Did YOU Lose YOUR Sprirt???<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How can we trust people with our lives that we can’t trust with our heart?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The human heart is one of the deepest organs in our bodies and the closest to our souls.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Once someone has willingly and repeatedly cheated on us, they will NEVER stop just as long as we accept it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nobody wants to be reminded that they aren’t attractive by their mate so it’s easy to understand the psyche behind it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Denial keeps us from feeling the pain and hurt of not being wanted and so the cycle continues until someone explodes in rage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have always been a realist and I understand that habitual cheaters will not stop.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There’s always going to be someone better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>People are fooled by a gift or flowers or a kind word.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After such gestures and they accept the horrible behavior, things go back to the unloving and unromantic relationship.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Time and time again this has happened.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How can a strong and opinionated woman be turned into a frightened coward?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t know but I do know that people always have different options.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I only assume that these women feel that they can’t do any better than a lying cheat or that because their spouse chose many different women, they feel undesirable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Either way it’s sad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never thought of my BROWNIE as a coward but what holds HER back from taking back HER dignity?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It has to be denial or fear of nobody wanting them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Probably imbedded into HER head by HER spouse; statements like nobody else will love you like this or nobody else can provide for you like this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Or maybe even this is a sign we should be together while all along he is plotting his next rendezvous.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt sorry for HER just as much as I wanted to protect HER from all of this hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She didn’t have to put HERSELF through this in order to feel special or important.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Only to be reminded a few months later that she is less than second best when he cheats again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What a horrible man to destroy a </span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%;">woman from the inside out and how selfish to not give HER a chance to move on and find happiness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The ONLY one that can help HER is HERSELF.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She has to realize and accept that he did these things to HER and he did the repeatedly without conscience.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE has to believe that SHE deserves better before SHE can move on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel sorry for YOU BROWNIE and I won’t give up on YOUR desire and fight in YOU to be better and do better than someone who disrespects YOU and will always cheat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Brownie… Brownie you are way better than that so how did YOU get lost and consumed in this???<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know YOU can get out of this horrible relationship. This can't be what YOU want... There's no way that YOU want or will accept a cheating husband.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-25853806251718874362012-07-25T16:19:00.000-07:002012-07-25T16:19:03.830-07:00Im ONLY Human...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-size: large;">Yes I have heard EVERYTHING that SHE has told me and I understand all of HER ups and downs and setbacks; that being said... Maybe one of the most difficult situations that could possibly come up in life is the severing or dismantling of a personal relationship or marriage. I get it. I have been there and done that. YOU have to decide for yourself exactly what YOU will allow in a lifetime partner and what exactly YOU need and want in life to be truly happy. Just surviving or co-existing does in no way, shape, or form land anywhere near HAPPY. I, for the life of me, can't understand how a person will have standards and expectations of what they want in their life and, when it's time to act, fall short of that and convince themselves that it's okay due to the lack of emergency. We continued to talk and, in my mind, I continued to question HER goals of completely severing HER marriage. A blind man could see that SHE wasn't happy. Any self-respecting person couldn't possibly stand for such emotional and mental abuse from a spouse, under no circumstances. If the plan that YOU set forth isn't going to produce your desired goals in a reasonable amount of time, then YOU need to change YOUR game plan. I truly care for HER but I am not an idiot; although, actions sometimes prove otherwise. Not working at all or working part time hours, especially with slightly above average medical needs, will not allow HER to realistically move out on HER own. So that tells me that SHE has no plans to do so. I'm not saying that it has to happen over night but there's no plan to chnge it at all. I would think that a very NECESSARY divorce is important enough to make drastic changes if that is what is required. Are YOU any closer to divorce and supporting yourself than YOU were a year ago or even six months ago? If SHE doesn't understand how the way SHE makes HER moves or doesn't make any moves affects someone that SHE claims is special and that SHE loves, then SHE's not living in reality. It affects everything from how I might react from not talking X amount of days to not sexing for X amount of days. Or atleast how all of that affects me. Actions generally speak louder than words. I put trust into what SHE said and then look up after six months or a year later and NADA. What is SHE really doing? Will stuff like that drift into a relationship in other ways? Of course it will and has. Possibly the cause of unnecessary disagreements or disputes, possibly the cause of random hurt feelings or possibly the cause of feeling distant or uninterest. I have had many, many heart to heart conversations about past and present desires and needs, not to mention experiences, and nothing about HER current marriage lines up with anything that SHE wants. Now throw in the fact that sexualadvances go seemingly unnoticed or with zero response. NOT so much as a I HEARD THAT YOU WANT ME AND I WANT YOU TOO I'M NOT IN THE MOOD TODAY BUT WE WILL DO IT SOON. Or SORRY I WAS TIRED AND I HEARD WHAT YOU SAID & I WANT YOU TOO SO WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW? Things have gone through my mind over and over. Sometimes not as frequently as others. SHE told me that SHE wasn't feeling sexual but there were no attempt to solve the problem. I would think that if YOU were in a DEAD END relationship or marriage and YOU found someone that became special and loved by YOU... You would do everything in YOUR power to ease anydoubts about YOUR emotional and sexual interest in them or where those two things were focused.</span></div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-1506190729735649462012-07-23T17:38:00.002-07:002012-07-23T17:49:38.084-07:00One Bad Apple...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%;"> So we did it! We met for the first time in our sign-of-the-times relationship. I enjoyed every minute of it and I am looking forward to the next time. We have had some disagreements and, to no surprise, they usually centered on HER dead marriage. It seems so simple. Walk away from it and start over with a certain freshness and hope for a beautiful future. OR stay and know that YOU will never be truly happy or loved like you need to be. Simple! I had endured a misguided marriage and I gave it a second shot. As soon as it was over then it was over. We ended it and it was the best decision. How sad would it be to be in a relationship and know that you will never be happy? Not to mention, knowing that you will be cheated on until death do you part. Anyway, work was getting more familiar and I was finding my way around town a little easier. We still talked on the phone and skyped. It was a little different after having met HER; different in a good way. I really enjoyed the way HER body naturally fit when we were in the cuddle position. It was perfect! HER curves landed right where they needed to be. SHE felt really good up against me and in my arms. I was going to fly HER down to see me right around my birthday. The fact that SHE was still in the same house with that dumb ass was getting to me. We opened a new chapter to our relationship yet SHE hadn’t severed all ties with dipshit. I sometimes wondered how many guys at work he probably told how he was disrespecting HER repeatedly and how many guys at his job either knew or have helped him pull off some of his gutter-fied, dumpster diving, trailer park trashy encounters? You know most men that accomplish what is thought of as something that most men would love to do have to have to brag about it. SICKENING! So naturally I did feel sorry for HER because how sad. Most of the time, I think that SHE is living in denial. Somehow SHE thinks because he paid the bills that he needed to pay in order for himself to live comfortably too, She misconstrues the fact that he can be and still is a jackass. I still had strong feelings for HER but I started to feel that all of my love and desire might have an expiration date if SHE doesn’t wise up and make actually moves to divorce. Something made HER hesitant and it’s not logic or reality. I think he must have drilled it in HER head that SHE couldn’t survive without him. Well I think SHE is a smart woman so there is no way that SHE will stand for that kind of disrespect and outright humiliation. I tried to help HER remember that SHE was pretty and desirable every chance that I could. I tried to boost HER self-esteem. It didn’t take a rocket scientist to know what has happened in HER marriage. I can tell by the way SHE responds to adversity and how SHE reacts when things don’t go as planned. PRINCESS I wish I could take all of that hurt away but I can’t. All I can do is try my best to make you feel good and smile knowing that there is a better way to life. Some days we talked, SHE would be cheerful and others, SHE would be down. Ok it was getting closer to our next meeting. I wanted to go panty shopping with HER if possible and just love on HER. PRINCESS there is a man that will love YOU, want YOU, and show YOU. </span></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif';">Wow!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had a great time having some quality face time with my PRINCESS.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was pleasantly surprised by HER backside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE had always downplayed it to me but I find it quite nice to grab and spank.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I couldn’t and didn’t want to keep my hands off of HER the whole weekend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After all of that teasing and dirty talk, I was ready for some lovin.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We had some good conversations and laughs just like we did over the phone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I love the way that SHE kisses and when SHE goes for my neck and ears, it drives me crazy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So we met and I would have to say that it went better than either of us could have imagined.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Good stuff!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The morning that I was going to leave, we cuddled up and loved on each other until it was time to get ready.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After we got ready and went downstairs to HER truck, we sat there for a little while because we had some extra time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE looked so pretty and sexy sitting in HER seat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If SHE was trying to tempt me to miss my flight, it was working.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We smooched a little more and then it was off to the airport.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We hugged and kissed goodbye almost at the exact same spot where we had met for the first time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I called HER after I checked in and traveled to my gate.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I definitely enjoyed my trip and couldn’t wait to see HER again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I boarded my flight headed back home after our sexy rendezvous.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I got back home it was Sunday evening.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I found my truck, paid my parking fee, and headed to my house.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had to work in the morning so I didn’t have too much extra time to spare.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I let HER know that I made it home okay and then I got some rest before falling asleep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We talked and agreed that next time we meet up, SHE comes to see me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We were thinking around Thanksgiving which is also around the time of my birthday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Roughly about every 8 years, Thanksgiving falls on my birthday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I thought that was cool since I found out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Where’s this all headed?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I really don’t know right now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE needs to make some firm decisions and roll with them…</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%;"></span></div>
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Ah alone in a hotel room at last. We talked for a while and quickly navigated to the bed. It was a very nice room. It had the whole sofa bed kind of thing going on and a nice comfy bed itself. SHE looked good and I wanted to taste HER. SHE was showing a lot of cleavage and I was definitely looking. We migrated towards the bed. I couldn't wait to kiss HER pouty lips. It was hot! SHE really knew how to kiss and I know what I'm doing so sparks were flying. I love kissing HER. The way our mouths move and SHE puts HER tongue inside my mouth. I love sucking and gently biting on it. I just had to get a handful of HER sexy tits and ass. It was perfect. I love making out with HER. And I kept my word; I spanked HER ass. Of course I was growing in my pants and I didn't have to know that SHE was wet. One thing that I am so glad about is the fact that I found out long ago that women found me attractive. I don't have to beg or ploy for compliments. I am not saying that I am GOD'S gift but I know, on the average, more women like what they see than the ones that don't. I love the confidence that I have. We made out for hours and I couldn't believe that I was actually with my sexy PRINCESS. It was just like I had imagined. We got along the same as we did over the phone and computer. We went out for dinner and then came back to our love nest. SHE fit perfectly with HER body pressed up against mine. I loved when SHE laid on HER right side and faced away from me. Mmmmmmmm HER ass fit right into my crotch and I have long arms so I could wrap them around HER and squeeze on HER big, soft tits. I told HER to stop wiggling but I really didn't want HER to because it felt so good. As we lay there, I kissed all over HER back and neck. I was getting hard as a rock and SHE could feel it pressed up against HER ass....</div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-5666374523436365942012-06-24T14:34:00.001-07:002012-06-24T23:56:59.172-07:00It's About Time...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
When I woke up, I couldn't believe that today was the day. I had that wake-up-early-on-Saturday-morning-to-watch-the-cartoons kind of feeling. I was off work for three days. I was about to travel to a new place. And most importantly, I was going to meet my HONEY BUNNY! Me and that WOMAN have shared so many things and been through a lot together. Just imagine, about 30 years ago, this all would have been impossible. No internet, no chat lines, and besides I would have been 10 years old. Anyway, It was going down. I got to the airport early and had plenty of time to relax before my flight. I called HER to let HER know that I was coming. And YOU better be waiting! I have been to many airports and some are more confusing than others. Since I was meeting HER outside, I was hoping that it would be pretty easy to navigate. I only brought my little suitcase. I brought some of my pictures and things that I always wanted to show HER in person. I made sure that I had shaved and cut my hair. I was looking good. I messaged HER one more time as I was boarding the plane. See you soon PRINCESS. I had a connecting flight so it was off the plane again. The layover was less than an hour so it wasn't bad at all. Man, I can stretch my legs. Flying is the only time that I wish I was short. I feel sorry for short dudes. I remember one time I was in the checkout line with my little sister. There was a short dude in front of us and the clerk asked him how tall he was. I started laughing to myself. He said he was 5 foot 4 inches. My sister interrupted and told him no way. She said that he wasn't even 5 feet. My sister is tall for a woman and she was right. I could see the top of his head. Funny stuff... I messaged HER one more time and playfully told HER that SHE better be waiting. When the plane landed, I had a good little hike to get to the baggage claim.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All I could think was the fact that I am going to spank HER ass when I see HER.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still get a shortness of breath and walking around the airport got me a little bit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Okay, now that I had my bag, I had to find the way out of this place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As I was nearing the exit, I called HER and SHE had been parked waiting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE said that SHE was there and just had to pull up to the drop off/pick up area.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I got outside before SHE found my exit so I was standing and looking for HER.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was kind of exhausted because I didn’t sleep well and because of the flight.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The plan was to go to the hotel room and relax and kiss and grope HER.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Finally I saw HER truck pull up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE parked and got out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE walked around to the back of the truck and gave me a hug and a smooch.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> I hugged and smooched HER back. </span>I was ready to get settled so we were off to the hotel.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We were smiling and talking on the way there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I thought SHE was pretty and yes they were as big as they were on camera…YAY!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE said that SHE knew exactly where it was so that was good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We got there and went in to check in and guess what?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The desk clerk said that I didn’t have a reservation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>HUH?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I asked HER to please check again under my name and SHE did and nothing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I stepped back and looked at HER and then looked behind the counter and guess what?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I started laughing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I told the clerk nevermind. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE had taken us to the Holiday Inn and my reservation was at the Hyatt; the other “H”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We busted up laughing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My silly PRINCESS…<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So we rode over to the right hotel and, as SHE was parking….JERK!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She curb checked me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I couldn’t stop laughing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will never let HER live that down.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I went inside to check in and what do you know, they found me in the system.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I couldn’t wait to get upstairs for more than one reason. Let's see if YOU are as soft and cuddly as YOU look...mmmmm. Here we go…</div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-27591263057161581172012-06-23T15:25:00.000-07:002012-06-23T15:25:12.822-07:00I'm On My Way...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"> Okay so we set up a meeting and I was excited. SHE confided in me that SHE was a little nervous but that is definitely to be expected. We have been talking for about 4 years and are finally both on the same continent. Not only that, but we are in a position to meet. I was still recovering from my illness but well on my way. I was about 85% recovered. So I bought my plane tickets and thought about how we would react and what we would do. I told HER the date and SHE was excited too. We talked about HER picking me up from the airport and what was best. SHE wanted to be waiting outside in HER truck. Hmmm... I must admit that I was a little disappointed only because I thought SHE would want to meet me at the baggage claim. But I went with it if it would be more comfortable for HER. I was used to flying so the flight wasn't a big deal to me. I do hate being scrunched up in that tiny little space. I am 6 foot, 1 inch so I have long legs and I like to stretch out. The job was still good and I was making excellent money. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would really love to be able to write for a living. I just got to make that happen. I am still getting used to my surroundings so I don't know how to get around yet. Everywhere I go, I use GPS. I would be totally lost without it. I was all set for my trip. I made the hotel reservations and I requested the time off work. Man face to face, skin to skin with my little PRINCESS.... I can't wait. I had to schedule a doctor's appointment because I needed a checkup. I didn't feel bad or anything but before I was admitted, I didn't feel that bad either. I have become more health conscious. I never was too concerned because I was always out and running and playing sports. I never had any major issues whatsoever so I had a false sense of resilience and invincibility.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am so glad that I didn’t need alcohol or drugs to get me high.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The adrenaline rush from competing and from winning was the best feeling in the world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well, the second best feeling in the world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So how is this going to go?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Is she going to get rid of that loser?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It just goes to show that no matter how smart you are, you can wind up in a not so smart situation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I guess the difference is that if you are smart, then you know how to get out of it….usually.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It would be cool to check out HER state and go shopping with HER for some panties and I need to enhance my wardrobe after leaving so much behind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To be totally honest, I don’t know if we will even see the outside of that hotel room.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SHE is very lucky to have me so into HER in many ways and I don’t mean that in a conceited kind of way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just know that I am a good guy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After we talked the night before my flight, I couldn’t hardly believe that after these years, no more phone or computer was going to be between us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could hardly sleep just like every time I’m going on a cool trip the next day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m going to see my PRINCESS…..</span></div>
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So I was pretty excited about setting up a meeting with HER. SHE has been there for me for several years when I needed HER and many times when I wanted HER. We have seen each other through pictures and video conversations but this is big. I can touch HER and kiss HER and see all of HER goodies in the flesh. I call all of HER assets such as HER tits and ass and little hot box, HER goodies. My new job was just as advertised. It was more laid back and less physical than what I had done in the military. But, the pay is better. The area is different than any other place that I actually lived. It is common here for houses to have basements and I was told they get quite a bit of snow. I am not too thrilled with the cold so I hope it's not that bad a winter. Even thought they have bad winters, it was fall yet everything was so green. I mean green enough for me to notice a difference right away. I had to find a place to stay. Although it's just me, I didn't want an apartment. I wanted to see if I could find a house and I had a month to do it so I should be fine. My coworkers were okay for the most part so work wasn't a bad place. We talked as usual and SHE was still sulking from me taking this job instead but no where as bad as SHE was when I first told HER. We continued getting each other off and videoing. The meeting was the main conversation. We talked about doing it in about a month or so. Still not a word about a divorce. I still didn't bring it up. I figured that SHE was like most women and didn't want to be married to a cheater. I know that SHE is a romantic and has plans of family and love. I also know that SHE won't be happy and can't really have nor enjoy any of that if SHE has to constantly look over HER shoulder and behind HER back. Even if SHE tried to overlook the cheating and move forward, the mistrust will eat away at HER and it will end very badly. I just decided to observe what HER next move would be. SHE can never enjoy or have what SHE wanted with me until SHE divorces. Anyway, I found a place and took pictures to show HER and so that piece of the puzzle was completed. Now we just have to coordinate with each other to nail down a date. I was going to fly out to see HER this time so I needed advance notice to get the best rate on a plane ticket. I figured that during the trip we would hang out in my hotel room and talk and laugh and have lots of sexy time. I was going to grope all over HER. I love HER assets and I can't wait to play with them... </div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-21214339285883194252012-05-30T14:00:00.000-07:002012-05-30T14:01:44.283-07:00Let's Do It...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
SHE decided to let this last little dispute about me taking the better job last for about two months. Why waste time on stupid, insignificant stuff? I tried not to get too upset about it and let HER vent. Sometimes YOU need to vent and I understand that. I'm sure I will need that favor one day, hopefully SHE realizes that and is fair. I feel, that in relationships, the little things such as this or HER downing me when i was sick, can be overlooked for the greater good. She was upset because HER feelings got hurt; I get it. CHEATING and such will destroy everything and if things continue after cheating something very bad will result. No trust equals no relationship! It will happen again. So I bit my tongue because I knew things were difficult for the both of us and we don't always act as we should under that kind of pressure. It's very important to understand how to argue even more important to know how to resolve an argument. SHE finally came around to having our normal, playful conversations. One day when we are both dead, SHE is going to want those months back. I don't know how SHE felt but I wanted HER bad; still do. We had phone play and it was awesome; it always is. What a way to be there when you can't be there. It's nice to be that turned on by that special somebody. We should meet soon! Man, our first in the flesh, lips to lips, hugging, touching and sexing and laughing and yessss. I can't believe I am going to be face to face with my sexy lover, friend after three years of amazing. I'm going to set it up. Let's finally meet PRINCESS...</div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-57754796268018411302012-05-30T13:06:00.000-07:002012-05-30T13:23:53.023-07:00Up Up And Away...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
The worst thing anyone can do is take away YOUR happily ever after. Especially when that person is SUPPOSED to love YOU. I think it's dishonest not to express YOUR true feelings. Can I get mad? Of course I can get mad. EVERYBODY gets mad. If there's a person that you know that doesn't get mad, then YOU better drop them off with military officials so they can determine what other species they are. I'm passionate about all of the important things in life. It's definitely a plus and not a negative. If I love you, then I love YOU completely. You will feel like the most special woman in the world. I don't have time for ignorant cheating or looking. If I choose you, then that means I want YOU. It takes a lot to get me angry. An example of things that are sure to boil me over is when there is a major lie. Let me explain. A major lie is a lie that has a direct effect on health, head or heart. Lying about what color that YOU wore doesn't get me upset. However, telling me that you were with your girlfriends and I find out that you were hanging out with a dude will do it. Anyway, I came back from my interview and decided to take the new job. It's more important for me to get established smoothly and I needed the relocation pay in order to do that effectively. Not to mention that there will be a lot of opportunities because it's a growing company. How do I tell HER? Because, as much as SHE tries to act like SHE doesn't do the things SHE chastises me about, SHE can get mad and offensive and all that not so good stuff. I guess I will just tell HER. SHE has got to understand that it's not personal because it is not personal. If you ever get a chance to know me, you will figure out soon that I am as honest as they come. When I told HER that I decided to take the other job I made sure that I explained careful why. SHE wasn't having it or hearing it. SHE want to argue and go off on me. I'm trying to do what's best and SHE decided to be very selfish and very cold. SHE told me that it was stupid to change my mind at the last minute and that because I chose this job, we would never see each other and oh well. What? I expected HER to be happy for me and be adaptable because SHE said that SHE loved me. I had every intention to come see HER just as soon as I could. This really broke my heart. I expected much more from HER but it didn' make me change my opinion of HER or condemn HER for HER actions. I truly did get over this but, like I said, it hurt me pretty bad. It took the wind right out of my sails. I understand that people can let emotions get the better of them sometimes so I didn't dwell on it. I just hopes SHE comes to HER senses and realizes that SHE was wrong. SHE will be wrong again I am sure and so will I but if you love each other, this little stuff can be overlooked. Just for your information, it wasn't the first time SHE overreacted and I know it won't be the last. Conversations were a little rough during this time because SHE holds on to things way to long and when SHE says SHE'S over it, be ready to hear about it a few more times. Even knowing all of that, I don't condemn HER. In relationships, you have to see both sides clearly before YOU do something drastic. There are some things that unforgivable like cheating and physical violence. So I told my doctor and he said it was okay for me to leave early. Thank GOD! So now I am on my way to a new place on a new adventure and the woman that I love is not supporting me...</div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-52347468795249131082012-05-29T16:53:00.001-07:002012-05-29T16:53:27.467-07:00Damned If I do...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
The job that was within miles of HER came through. They hired me and wanted me to start in several weeks. All I had to do is get the okay from my doctor and I was golden. During my next doctors appointment, he actually told me that he wanted me to stay in treatment for a couple of more weeks just as a precaution and he had no data stating that I must stay. However, he said that if I acquired employment before his tentative date, then he would release me from treatment. COOL! I thought that was very fair. So I talked to HER about me getting the job and told HER what my start date would be. SHE was really excited and so was I. I am going to see my PRINCESS and pretty frequently. I started getting in the mind frame of accepting my new job. Then, I got an email from this other job. They were a newer company with every benefit that I needed. They also offered relocation money and the pay was great. Another benefit they had over the job I was going to accept was the fact that it was a permanent job instead of a one year contract and let's see what happens kind of deal. I guess it wouldn't hurt to see what they had to offer. This new job said they would fly me out for an interview too. What harm would that do? I will just schedule it before I am supposed to leave. I mean isn't that the smart thing to do? I wanted to maximize my earning potential and maximize my benefits. So I scheduled an interview the week before I was supposed to start work. SHE wasn't thrilled about it but I have to do what's best for me, for us even. My goal is to move closer to HER and I had told HER that regardless. All I want is happily ever after with HER. There are so many thing that I absolutely adore about HER. He doesn't deserve HER because he doesn't respect HER nor does he love HER like a man loves and adores his wife. SHE deserves that and I am certain SHE knows that I can give it to HER. Well I got to catch a plane. So I am going to fly out for an interview. Over the phone, everything sounded great and if this company can deliver like advertised, then I would be a fool not to accept employment. But, at the same time, I want to be closer to HER. I hope SHE can support me no matter what I decide. I have got to choose wisely. I flew out and met my potential boss. He seemed very knowledgeable and very trustworthy at the first impression. i also found out that not only will I get more than enough for relocation, they will also provide FREE temporary housing for a month. Oh man I am torn. I love HER so much and want HER so much. But this is such a great opportunity. I don't know if I can pass it up and I don't know how SHE will respond if I decide to take this job instead...</div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-72482789390581348952012-05-28T11:33:00.000-07:002012-05-28T19:07:21.032-07:00Round And Round We Go...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I still heard no word on a divorce. SHE seriously couldn't be considering staying with this guy that his mom should have swallowed instead if you know what I mean? he pulled off very dirty and underhanded lies, truth be told, for probably half their marriage. I was under the impression that SHE had more self-respect, pride and love for HERSELF than that. However, I didn't express my feelings. I don't care if this loser bought HER a diamond for every day of their marriage, enough is enough. What he did cannot be repaired let alone repaired with money. Especially when he jeopardized HER health by playing Russian roulette with sexually transmitted diseases or STD's. I'm sure this sex maniac used a condom every single time he dipped his cock in all of those skanks. Yeah right. I know SHE had some financial concerns in the event of divorce but that's what a good divorce lawyer is for. SHE would not suffer financially nor will SHE have to worry about medical insurance. My job hunt continued in the midst of all of this. My first job offer came in but I would have to relocate and provide my own tools. I really wanted to take that job because the location was perfect and the pay was excellent. But, those start up expenses were just a little too much for me to feel comfortable. I had to decline. It could wind up being a big mistake because there's no guarantee I will get another offer. I'm confident in my abilities and experience but nothings 100 percent. About a week after I turned down that first offer, another one came. This one had great pay and was only several hours away from my PRINCESS. How cool! That would mean a weekend trip would be easy and we should be able to see each other regularly. I told HER the news and SHE was very excited. SHE calculated the driving distance and started talking about making trips out to see me. Now this job didn't pay for relocation but everything else was cool. Okay, I guess that I will take it. The fact that I could see HER played a pretty good role in my decision. We talked about how SHE felt about romeo and SHE said that SHE wasn't mad at him. HUH? SHE said that SHE doesn't want him to be HER enemy. HUH? And if he is out of HER life, then he isn't ANYTHING but a horrible memory. By my recollection, he made HER an enemy by cheating on HER all of those years with all of those whores. SHE'S not mad??? How can YOU not be mad that someone that YOU pored YOUR heart and soul into, and trusted with YOUR life and well-being, WILLINGLY and REPEATEDLY destroyed YOUR faith and humiliated YOU all for frivolous self gratification? It was over the course of many years so he absolutely could have cared less about the ramifications and must have thought SHE was an idiot and wouldn't ever find out. How can YOU not be mad? Oh I am plenty mad for the both of us. He's a user and abuser and that's his good qualities. SHE is actually my friend and to see someone walk all over and disrespect my friend... Now add the fact that SHE is my sexy lover and confidant...FUCK him. I wouldn't piss on him to put a fire out. I take that back; I would piss all over him and then relight the flame. Can we say SHE'S still in denial? So what if he paid the bills? He had a LEGAL obligation to pay them. So what if he bought gifts? Money will NEVER replace respect, trust, honesty, or love. So what if he has helped with medical insurance and such? Again, if he didn't then he could be forced to do so by a court of law. So what good has he actually done that he wouldn't have been forced to do by law? I'm starting getting the feeling that SHE has a very addictive personality. Some of the things SHE told me plus just some of HER actions lead me to believe this. Like, for instance, social networks on line. I have a feeling that SHE would and probably have neglected things and possibly overlooked people to constantly stay on line for hours at a time. I don't know if that's a good thing. I would think research and planning out HER life would take priority. Not that YOU can't enjoy down time but if it does prohibit real relationships and life from progressing then, it's an issue. Anyway, I landed this job and I am supposed to start in several weeks. I just have to see if my doctor will release me from treatment a little earlier than he had said...</div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-39880080307094560852012-05-28T02:38:00.001-07:002012-05-28T10:41:25.659-07:00You're An All-star...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Now one of the big reasons for me being disgruntled about not being as mobile as before was the fact that I love sports. Ever since the third grade, I have been in love. It all started with dodgeball and kickball and progressed into football and basketball. I'm not talking about soccer; real American football. I have always been quick and confident in every game that I have played. I have done things that some guys just dream about. I have hit home runs in games before. I have caught the winning touchdown numerous times. I have made the winning shot before. I have been the last man standing in dodgeball numerous times. I have struck out numerous players before. I love sports! So I have to get back to that high level of strength and endurance. I understand that it can take years but I got to do it. I started walking better but I still had a lingering shortness of breath so I had to pace myself. I began looking for jobs in HER area as well as the west coast. There are several reasons that I wanted to go out west; some of which I won't get into in this story. My military experience and training has made it possible for me to be in the running for some high paying jobs. I am blessed. There were some opportunities available so I threw my resume at several of them. I still didn't know exactly when I would be released. The last time we discussed it, the doctor told me in about two months. I started feeling the pressure from that as well. Now when we talked the conversations were a little more lovey dovey. SHE expressed some of HER feelings for me that we had never talked about and I did the same about HER. I had never pressured HER before to leave HER husband or anything like that and I didn't feel the need to start now. I just assumed that now it was the smart, logical, an inevitable thing to happen. But make no mistake I felt and hoped it would happen soon. I want HER around and can't imagine how it would feel to be in HER presence on a regular basis. We still hadn't met though. We have logged in a lot of video and phone time through the years. I knew that meeting would just enhance all of this. But I have to get my health back on the right track and get situated in my new job; wherever and whatever that will be. This answers the whole can you love someone without meeting them question. So many similarities we have. Everything lines up from sexual turn ons to family upbringing to music to even the most basic qualities of life and expectations. Again we had experienced another trial. I want to meet HER and hold HER and kiss HER and feel HER from the inside out. </div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-29723432474075231712012-05-26T11:11:00.001-07:002012-05-26T11:32:09.246-07:00Back To The Story...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I was definitely worried about what might have happened to HER. I didn't receive a text or a phone call so I was kind of left hanging. Maybe SHE decided not to talk to me again... Maybe HER asshole husband hurt or killed HER... I was just waiting for HER to contact me. When finally, I got a text. SHE told me that SHE was the one that went to jail because SHE had tried to grab romeo's phone and cut his forehead with her ring. SHE proceeded to tell more of the details about his escapades and sexual affairs. He had been doing all of this for a long time. He had even screwed around while he was at work. I could only imagine how that would feel to know that your spouse was fucking any and everyone that would let them. How would it feel to go back and think...maybe when he was late picking me up, he was actually fucking a dirty skank? You could never trust them again so basically it is over! SHE told me that it all came about when a text came in on his phone from a female. He confessed to having numerous affairs for X amount of years. Again I believe that SHE can double the amount of time that he confessed to and still be off by a year or two. This was worth a lot less than a voluntary confession. He was forced to come clean due to the circumstances. SHE was arrested and in jail and had to go to the hospital because of a health related condition. SHE was unable to contact me for most of that time. WOW! So I am thinking there is no way possible that SHE will stay with that degenerate. He has proven time and time again that he doesn't want HER. SHE always appeared to me as a very strong willed and headstrong woman. I know SHE won't put up with this blatant disrespect for HER and, everything that SHE believed in HER marriage was all a lie. What's HER next step going to be? I told HER that I was sorry and I wish things didn't happen the way they did. Wait a minute. Why don't I? She needed a wake up and get the fuck away from this dude call. As sorry as I was for the whole jail experience and such, I wasn't sorry that the loser was exposed for the real jerk that he is. SHE also told me that when the cops showed up, SHE was feeling very bad health-wise and they forced HER to get medical treatment. SHE said that it got to the point that night that something really awful was going to happen like someone getting hurt. SHE thanked me for saving HER life. What could I do? SHE needed me and I wasn't going to let HER die. I began to realize that no matter how screwed up the situation is, I love that WOMAN. I hope SHE does the smart thing and leaves him because there is absolutely no positive nor healthy future ahead with him. We talked some more and there was another shift in our four year relationship. Wow did I say four years? I am not a person that carries stress with me but it had been very trying. I know SHE wants me and jerk off doesn't want HER so it's easy. And I want HER too. Finally, I believe SHE will make the right decision and we can finally move forward and explore this relationship. We can finally enjoy each other the way that we have always wanted. I never thought of HER as someone that I would get a chance to have a complete relationship with because SHE has been married this whole time. But now, SHE will be divorced soon. I love and need HER and all of this made it all clear...</div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-73604022766683433602012-05-24T01:14:00.004-07:002012-05-24T01:14:44.579-07:00Personal Responsibility...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
As I dove head first into this relationship, I did so knowing a few things to be true. I feel that YOU, as the better half in a relationship, take on a personal responsibility when YOU decide to be in an intimate relationship. Intimate is not only sexually but most importantly, emotionally intangled in the others inner thoughts and dreams for the future. There are no laws or contracts but, if YOU are responsible, respectable and morally sound, YOU know this to be true. The way some people treat their better half, there should be laws to convict them for breaking someone down to the point of destroying their inner self. Maybe that would eliminate some of the " I do whatever I want" negative attitudes out there since some people don't have common courtesy and respect. YOU should know that when YOU take on a personal relationship, that YOU take on personal responsibility. For instance, let's say that I took my girlfriend out on a date. We walk towards an attractive woman and as we are passing by, I grab her ass. Now there's no law against me doing that (to my girlfriend anyway); however, I take on personal responsibility for my girlfriend's feelings and heart when I make her mine. I know that grabbing that woman will hurt her greatly because her heart is linked to mine. In other words, doing things that YOU KNOW will hurt that "special" someone, emotionally and definitely physically, is wrong and YOU should take personal responsibility for our actions. At the highest level of relationships, a marriage, vows have been put in place in the ceremony as a reminder. I will love and honor you and have nobody else before you. That's your responsibility. Now there are different levels of responsibility depending on how much has been vested in the relationship. An emotional and sexual and spiritual bond should be honored and cherished at all times. YOU have a responsibility! Just because YOU say I'm not responsible, doesn't make it true. In YOUR heart of hearts, if YOU have one, YOU know what's wrong. A good test is to see how YOU feel when YOUR significant other belittles or ignores what YOU say or wish or just down right disrespects YOU. Did their actions have a direct effect on YOUR mood and emotions? Of course they did. Why do YOU feel that YOU can reap the benefits of a good relationship without contributing anything positive? A good relationship requires some key ingredients: mutual respect for each other and each others feelings, honesty on both ends at ALL times, not only telling but showing genuine affection, and doing the simple things to keep everything together. You will never have the same attributes in a different relationship because different people would be involved. When you capture something special you should cherish and respect it because when it's gone, it's gone!</div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4756054306228620920.post-1149502430006028102012-05-23T13:58:00.000-07:002012-05-23T16:21:14.581-07:00NO MORE EXCUSES.... Is This The End???<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Throughout this whole thing, I have been more than patient and understanding and accommodating. I was stupid enough to believe HER on HER word. See I believe that people are like me and I shouldn't. I believe in ONE woman for ONE man...no excuses, no oh it's just the internet, no I was drunk honey, no everybody else is doing it. I also believe in ONE man for ONE woman. If YOU can't do little simple things for the person that YOU are supposed to love, then that should tell YOU just how screwed up YOU are. Not only screwed up but hypocritical. Situations reversed and YOU have a heart attack and can't believe how this could be done to YOU. Actions speak LOUDER than words! If YOU are not willing to show it, then YOU don't mean it! We still talked and the more trust that is broken the more tainted the vision becomes. Trying to excuse or argue away the main issue will not change the facts. If YOU are told, in sincerity something that bothers YOUR loved one and for the love of GOD and all that is right, CANNOT stop those activities, then YOU really don't love that person. I would have forsaked breathing if SHE said it would have harmed HER pretty little head. I tried to shake off the fact that SHE was married but it was getting to me. So I was nearing the point of letting HER fall on HER face. No matter how much I loved HER, I should love myself more. If SHE can't or refuses to do simple things, then what does that mean for the future. Why would YOU rather have insincere and shady people who YOU don't really know in YOUR imaginary life than someone that has proven themselves time and time again. There must be an illness for this. SERIOUSLY because how stupid is that? Well, we continued talking and SHE made no efforts to dissolve HER marriage and not only that had extracurricular activities going on. I would think after being married that nothing else would come up or be brought in my face about another dude whatsoever. Whether it's the phone, internet or sending fucking letters through the mail. Then I get a text from HER later in the night. SHE told me how there were very bad things going on with HER husband. SHE found out that romeo had been repeatedly cheating on HER for the course of 4 or 5 or 6 years or whatever he decided to confess to. I am a firm believer that when a confession comes out, it is most likely WORSE than what is confessed. Well, stupid me is concerned because I am under the assumption that SHE loved me. Romeo had pictures and such of different whores he fucked and LORD knows what else. They had to be prostitutes or drug addicts because no self respecting woman would engage in the sexual activities that were described. There was a situation with a gun and HER and romeo. SHE was basically telling me good bye in the text. I could never be as cold as to string someone along nor make someone feel less of a person while knowing that my actions did just that....make them feel less of a person. I couldn't let HER die. I stopped getting texts so I had to act. Being the fact that I didn't live in the same town, I dialed 911. I come to find out that they are not all linked. The cops came to my MOM'S house. What the fuck? Every second could mean SHE is dead. To this day, I don't know if SHE even appreciated it because instead of stopping something stupid and frivolous, SHE would rather show SHE doesn't care at all about my wishes repeatedly. So as the cops that were supposed to save the day, were standing in front of me, I had to act even faster. I called HER local cops and had them dispatch officers and alerted them there was a gun involved. My heart was racing and I couldn't breath. Will they get there in time? Why the fuck didn't SHE already leave this loser? Why the fuck didn't I already leave HER alone? I guess all the answers to those questions and the cure for cancer will be found in a time capsule in 1000 years. I didn't hear any word over night from HER. I called back HER local station and they said that officers did go out and someone was arrested. But, they wouldn't tell me any more information. I had at least a weeks worth of sleepless nights and questions before I would find out anything else. Was SHE still alive? I have no idea and no idea why I still cared. SHE can't do simple things for me like leave certain things alone. ERASE all of the issues with no complaints, arguments or excuses. I might have saved HER life but I don't know yet; nor do I know if SHE will care....</div>Panther GOODYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13913001644791886022noreply@blogger.com0