One and ONLY...

     Even remembering as far back as my childhood, Thanksgiving was a good time.  My MOM and my older sisters always hooked up some great food.  The holiday itself lands on the fourth Thursday in November so the date changes from year to year.  One of the most special things about it, is the fact that Thanksgiving Day lands on my birthday about every six years or so.  Even though we had a big dinner, we would still make the rounds.  We would always visit my Grandmother's house and act a fool with my cousins.  Then, we would go to my Great Aunt's house and cut up there too.  Needless to say, we always had fun and went back home full.  Mmmmm, sweet potato pie! 
     It was the day before HER flight and I was excited.  We had already met so I knew more or less what to expect.  SHE was due to land in the early evening so that was cool.  I'm looking forward to see how SHE acts more and more.  I mean the real HER; not the I'm trying to make a good impression cause I like you HER.  SHE called me as SHE was boarding the plane.

     "Hello, YOU ready for your flight?" I asked.
     "Yesss!  I'm actually walking to the plane right now," SHE replied.
     "Kool!  Well, I hope you have a good and safe flight.  I will be there when YOU land," I reassured HER.
     "You better be.  Thank you and I can't wait to see you.  I will call you before I board my next plane," SHE said.
     "Alright.  See you in a few hours.  Bye!" I said.

     If we are gonna be serious in the future, then SHE is gonna have to totally drop that dumb ass.  Of course I could just have HER around for a piece of ass every now and then but that's not what I'm looking for; never have.  My last relationship was kinda screwy so I really didn't want a repeat.  A few unexpected things popped up like she had a couple of kids that she didn't mention, which wasn't the kicker.  Her head wasn't on too tight and more.  Being around HER should tell me a lot.  We shall see.  I'm open to different things but I need a one man woman.  I know what SHE has told me but ACTIONS mean the world to me...
    

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

     So it was official, the week of Thanksgiving was to be our second meeting.  Thanks to Skype, we had logged many hours of video chat together.  SHE was flying in and I was gonna pick HER up at the airport.  I just recently moved here and the place that I was renting didn't have a stove.  We had decided that we were going to cook Thanksgiving dinner together so I bought a stove.  Before, it was never too important because I am a bachelor and I eat out more often than I'd like to admit.  Don't get me wrong, I like to cook but cooking for one sometimes feels like overkill.
     Yes, you guessed it, I went ahead and ordered some hot panties from Victoria's Secret and they were waiting on HER cute little ass.  I was looking forward to talking, laughing, and cuddling with HER.  I decided to call HER up the day that I received my "package" cause SHE was on my mind. 
    
     "Hello," SHE answered.
     "Hello Brownie.  How are you doing?" I asked.
     "I'm good.  It's almost someone's birthday," SHE added.
     "Yeah... Are you ready for your flight?" I asked.
     "Yes I'm excited! Do you remember what time my flight lands?" SHE asked.
     "Of course I do and I am gonna be waiting outside in the parking lot when you arrive," I joked because when I went to see HER, SHE was outside.
     "You're funny.  You better be waiting for me," SHE said.
     "Yeah, yeah , yeah...  I hear you.  Hey I bought a stove so if you want to cook, we can," I told HER.
     "Cool!  Do you still want to cook?" SHE asked.
     "Hmmm let's see.  Guess what?" I replied.
     "What?" SHE asked.
     "Black Santa came by. He's a crazy guy," I said.
     I have always played with HER like that saying Black Santa came to let HER know that i got HER something; I mean that he did.  Why Black Santa?  Well, you know...
     "What color panties are you wearing?" I asked.
     "Let me see.  I am wearing those cute blue leopard print ones," SHE said.
     "I wanna see.  Send me a pic," I said.
    
     There are several of the ones that I got HER that make me horny when I see HER in them.  I loved getting pictures of HER in cute panties.  They all looked good but sometimes SHE catches just the right pose that makes me wanna bone HER.  Mmmmm... the way those panties fit HER.  I can't wait til SHE's here...

Friend or FOE???

     So that was the MEETING and it went as good as it could have possibly.  I definitely wanted to meet again and see what might be.  SHE is very inconsistent!  When i say that I mean SHE likes me one day, then for no apparent reason, has a bad day and takes things out on me.  I think because SHE is scared to attack the SOURCE of HER problems.  I have done nothing but try to help HER and make HER feel good in every way.  Maybe SHE takes that for granted....I don't know.  So we continued to talk.  We continued to have sexy time on the phone too.  I really enjoyed that with HER and I think SHE did with me.  I say I think because SHE would deny me and make up excuses not to play.  The way I see it, if you are not feeling it and you know the other person is, then you should definitely cash in that rain check.  The other person shouldn't have to beg to show you affection.  Eventually, that will sour our sexy time.  I tried to explain to HER how I felt and SHE just downplayed it or ignored it all together.  I wonder if SHE will notice when, because of HER changing, our sexy time and life changes?  I wonder if SHE will blame me?  We were planning our second meeting for around the time of my birthday which happens to land near Thanksgiving; some years it is Thanksgiving Day!  Every time SHE had a bad day with jerk off or SHE got hassled by anyone else, I was there to talk to HER until the wee hours and let HER know that it was alright.  All I have ever tried to do is make HER feel better and special.  I was very sexually attracted to HER but after being turned down, for even phone play, that feeling starts to fade a little.  Why would a woman not want to be desired?  Oh well...  I picked out some more cute panties that i know SHE would look good in.  When you are there for support, even when you are busy at work, and care about someone's well being, it's a slap in the face when they complain or take their bad luck out on you.  I'm NOT perfect but I dare you to find better!  Thanksgiving is coming and I am excited to see HER.  SHE is coming to me this time so I want HER to be comfortable and enjoy HER time here...

When Did YOU Lose YOUR Sprirt???

     How can we trust people with our lives that we can’t trust with our heart?  The human heart is one of the deepest organs in our bodies and the closest to our souls.  Once someone has willingly and repeatedly cheated on us, they will NEVER stop just as long as we accept it.  Nobody wants to be reminded that they aren’t attractive by their mate so it’s easy to understand the psyche behind it.  Denial keeps us from feeling the pain and hurt of not being wanted and so the cycle continues until someone explodes in rage.  I have always been a realist and I understand that habitual cheaters will not stop.  There’s always going to be someone better.  People are fooled by a gift or flowers or a kind word.  After such gestures and they accept the horrible behavior, things go back to the unloving and unromantic relationship.  Time and time again this has happened.  How can a strong and opinionated woman be turned into a frightened coward?  I don’t know but I do know that people always have different options.  I only assume that these women feel that they can’t do any better than a lying cheat or that because their spouse chose many different women, they feel undesirable.  Either way it’s sad.  I never thought of my BROWNIE as a coward but what holds HER back from taking back HER dignity?  It has to be denial or fear of nobody wanting them.  Probably imbedded into HER head by HER spouse; statements like nobody else will love you like this or nobody else can provide for you like this.  Or maybe even this is a sign we should be together while all along he is plotting his next rendezvous.  I felt sorry for HER just as much as I wanted to protect HER from all of this hurt.  She didn’t have to put HERSELF through this in order to feel special or important.  Only to be reminded a few months later that she is less than second best when he cheats again.  What a horrible man to destroy a woman from the inside out and how selfish to not give HER a chance to move on and find happiness.  The ONLY one that can help HER is HERSELF.  She has to realize and accept that he did these things to HER and he did the repeatedly without conscience.  SHE has to believe that SHE deserves better before SHE can move on.  I feel sorry for YOU BROWNIE and I won’t give up on YOUR desire and fight in YOU to be better and do better than someone who disrespects YOU and will always cheat.  Brownie… Brownie you are way better than that so how did YOU get lost and consumed in this???  I know YOU can get out of this horrible relationship.  This can't be what YOU want...  There's no way that YOU want or will accept a cheating husband. 

Im ONLY Human...

     Yes I have heard EVERYTHING that SHE has told me and I understand all of HER ups and downs and setbacks; that being said...  Maybe one of the most difficult situations that could possibly come up in life is the severing or dismantling of a personal relationship or marriage.  I get it.  I have been there and done that.  YOU have to decide for yourself exactly what YOU will allow in a lifetime partner and what exactly YOU need and want in life to be truly happy.  Just surviving or co-existing does in no way, shape, or form land anywhere near HAPPY.  I, for the life of me, can't understand how a person will have standards and expectations of what they want in their life and, when it's time to act, fall short of that and convince themselves that it's okay due to the lack of emergency.  We continued to talk and, in my mind, I continued to question HER goals of completely severing HER marriage.  A blind man could see that SHE wasn't happy.  Any self-respecting person couldn't possibly stand for such emotional and mental abuse from a spouse, under no circumstances.  If the plan that YOU set forth isn't going to produce your desired goals in a reasonable amount of time, then YOU need to change YOUR game plan.  I truly care for HER but I am not an idiot; although, actions sometimes prove otherwise.  Not working at all or working part time hours, especially with slightly above average medical needs, will not allow HER to realistically move out on HER own.  So that tells me that SHE has no plans to do so.  I'm not saying that it has to happen over night but there's no plan to chnge it at all.  I would think that a very NECESSARY divorce is important enough to make drastic changes if that is what is required.  Are YOU any closer to divorce and supporting yourself than YOU were a year ago or even six months ago?  If SHE doesn't understand how the way SHE makes HER moves or doesn't make any moves affects someone that SHE claims is special and that SHE loves, then SHE's not living in reality.  It affects everything from how I might react from not talking X amount of days to not sexing for X amount of days.  Or atleast how all of that affects me.  Actions generally speak louder than words.  I put trust into what SHE said and then look up after six months or a year later and NADA.  What is SHE really doing?  Will stuff like that drift into a relationship in other ways?  Of course it will and has.  Possibly the cause of unnecessary disagreements or disputes, possibly the cause of random hurt feelings or possibly the cause of feeling distant or uninterest.  I have had many, many heart to heart conversations about past and present desires and needs, not to mention experiences, and nothing about HER current marriage lines up with anything that SHE wants.  Now throw in the fact that sexualadvances go seemingly unnoticed or with zero response.  NOT so much as a I HEARD THAT YOU WANT ME AND I WANT YOU TOO I'M NOT IN THE MOOD TODAY BUT WE WILL DO IT SOON.  Or SORRY I WAS TIRED AND I HEARD WHAT YOU SAID & I WANT YOU TOO SO WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW?  Things have gone through my mind over and over.  Sometimes not as frequently as others.  SHE told me that SHE wasn't feeling sexual but there were no attempt to solve the problem.  I would think that if YOU were in a DEAD END relationship or marriage and YOU found someone that became special and loved by YOU...  You would do everything in YOUR power to ease anydoubts about YOUR emotional and sexual interest in them or where those two things were focused.

One Bad Apple...

     So we did it!  We met for the first time in our sign-of-the-times relationship.  I enjoyed every minute of it and I am looking forward to the next time.  We have had some disagreements and, to no surprise, they usually centered on HER dead marriage.  It seems so simple.  Walk away from it and start over with a certain freshness and hope for a beautiful future.  OR stay and know that YOU will never be truly happy or loved like you need to be.  Simple!  I had endured a misguided marriage and I gave it a second shot.  As soon as it was over then it was over.  We ended it and it was the best decision.  How sad would it be to be in a relationship and know that you will never be happy?  Not to mention, knowing that you will be cheated on until death do you part.  Anyway, work was getting more familiar and I was finding my way around town a little easier.  We still talked on the phone and skyped.  It was a little different after having met HER; different in a good way.  I really enjoyed the way HER body naturally fit when we were in the cuddle position.  It was perfect! HER curves landed right where they needed to be.  SHE felt really good up against me and in my arms.  I was going to fly HER down to see me right around my birthday.  The fact that SHE was still in the same house with that dumb ass was getting to me.  We opened a new chapter to our relationship yet SHE hadn’t severed all ties with dipshit.  I sometimes wondered how many guys at work he probably told how he was disrespecting HER repeatedly and how many guys at his job either knew or have helped him pull off some of his gutter-fied, dumpster diving, trailer park trashy encounters?  You know most men that accomplish what is thought of as something that most men would love to do have to have to brag about it.  SICKENING!  So naturally I did feel sorry for HER because how sad.  Most of the time, I think that SHE is living in denial.  Somehow SHE thinks because he paid the bills that he needed to pay in order for himself to live comfortably too, She misconstrues the fact that he can be and still is a jackass.  I still had strong feelings for HER but I started to feel that all of my love and desire might have an expiration date if SHE doesn’t wise up and make actually moves to divorce.  Something made HER hesitant and it’s not logic or reality.  I think he must have drilled it in HER head that SHE couldn’t survive without him.  Well I think SHE is a smart woman so there is no way that SHE will stand for that kind of disrespect and outright humiliation.  I tried to help HER remember that SHE was pretty and desirable every chance that I could.  I tried to boost HER self-esteem.  It didn’t take a rocket scientist to know what has happened in HER marriage.  I can tell by the way SHE responds to adversity and how SHE reacts when things don’t go as planned.  PRINCESS I wish I could take all of that hurt away but I can’t.  All I can do is try my best to make you feel good and smile knowing that there is a better way to life.  Some days we talked, SHE would be cheerful and others, SHE would be down.  Ok it was getting closer to our next meeting.  I wanted to go panty shopping with HER if possible and just love on HER.  PRINCESS there is a man that will love YOU, want YOU, and show YOU. 

Come Again.....

     Wow!  I had a great time having some quality face time with my PRINCESS.  I was pleasantly surprised by HER backside.  SHE had always downplayed it to me but I find it quite nice to grab and spank.  I couldn’t and didn’t want to keep my hands off of HER the whole weekend.  After all of that teasing and dirty talk, I was ready for some lovin.  We had some good conversations and laughs just like we did over the phone.  I love the way that SHE kisses and when SHE goes for my neck and ears, it drives me crazy.  So we met and I would have to say that it went better than either of us could have imagined.  Good stuff!  The morning that I was going to leave, we cuddled up and loved on each other until it was time to get ready.  After we got ready and went downstairs to HER truck, we sat there for a little while because we had some extra time.  SHE looked so pretty and sexy sitting in HER seat.  If SHE was trying to tempt me to miss my flight, it was working.  We smooched a little more and then it was off to the airport.  We hugged and kissed goodbye almost at the exact same spot where we had met for the first time.  I called HER after I checked in and traveled to my gate.  I definitely enjoyed my trip and couldn’t wait to see HER again.  I boarded my flight headed back home after our sexy rendezvous.  When I got back home it was Sunday evening.  I found my truck, paid my parking fee, and headed to my house.  I had to work in the morning so I didn’t have too much extra time to spare.  I let HER know that I made it home okay and then I got some rest before falling asleep.  We talked and agreed that next time we meet up, SHE comes to see me.  We were thinking around Thanksgiving which is also around the time of my birthday.  Roughly about every 8 years, Thanksgiving falls on my birthday.  I thought that was cool since I found out.  Where’s this all headed?  I really don’t know right now.  SHE needs to make some firm decisions and roll with them…