HUH.......?

...  I thought it was bad enough that SHE was still married and living with the dude, and I use that term loosely, but SHE wanted to and continued to add more drama to the mix.  If I am wrong and living wrong, according to my own standards, then why would I do things that I know are going to create chaos and more drama.......?  How do I know you ask?  Because I know who I am talking to and they have done their part by communicating to me numerous times the things that bothered them.  At this point, can I really complain if I know where they are coming from???????  More to come........

Act Like You Do Or You Won't Have It...

     It is cool that we have quite a few similarities in our upbringing.  One that I enjoy is our appetite for some of the same basic foods.  I like my meats well-done and, of course, since SHE is with me, SHE likes HER meat well-done too!  Correction, SHE better ONLY like mines!  Ha, just joking; not really but...  I had to buy ALL of my household supplies and appliances and everything.  You should read up and catch up on RickysNewBook.blogspot.com to get the whole scoop on that situation.  So we were definitely working with the basics.  Even chilling on the ole air mattress at the time.  When SHE started hanging out with me, in the flesh, I noticed a physical attribute that somehow escaped me during all of our Skype sessions.  I know SHE had two of the bounciest, softest, and nicest milk jugs around cause SHE can't hide them.  SHE better not hide them around me; however, there is a time and place for everything.  I like playing with HER by giving them some of the most male chauvinistic names.  I will share more names with you later.  When SHE slept with me...

     "Damn! What is that?" I asked.

     "What?  What's wrong?" SHE asked.

     I couldn't hold in my chuckle cause I was so excited.

     "Mmmm, look at that cute little caboose!" I said.

     "Caboose?" SHE asked.

     "Yeah.  I thought YOU always said that YOU didn't have one?  And YOU are wearing those cute panties.  I love that light brown ass!" I explained.

     SHE laughed and so did I but I am dead serious.

     "Why were YOU holding out on me? That is YOUR secret little weapon," I said.

     I knew exactly why SHE didn't realize what SHE had.  Dumb ass never took the time to tell HER or I doubt he even cared.  Who cares?  I have some goodies to play with...

Chez Ricky...

     So...she arrived around the time I had expected HER.  HER flight was on time and I definitely appreciated that more than anyone will ever know.  I had planned for us to possibly cook Thanksgiving dinner together and chill out and enjoy each other's company.  It was also my birthday weekend so I was looking forward to no drama and a very cool relaxation.  After all that I learned that SHE had been through, I didn't expect HER to want more drama and complications.  My feelings were growing for HER naturally since we talked and sexed each other a lot; whether it was phone boning or not.  Hopefully, SHE can get rid of that loser once and for all.  Then, we can find out what the future holds for us.  Until then, we are kinda in limbo.  Now we could rush and not play it smart but where would that get us?  If SHE doesn't drop dumb ass then nothing will ever work between us and that's just speaking realistically.  I have been very patient and more accommodating than you could possibly imagine.  Ever since the blowout about 6 months ago between HER and dumb ass this is an absolute no brainer.  Let's see how fast SHE totally separates  from him and moves on.

     HER plane landed and I was at the airport already; I just had to find my way to the baggage claim area.  We were in contact via cell phones throughout HER trip so that made everything easier.  I parked and rushed to the baggage claim.  I looked to the left, to the right , then back to the left.  SHE had already claimed HER bags and so I walked over to help HER carry them out to my truck.v

     "Hello, how was your flight?" I asked as I gave HER a hug.

     "My flight was okay but I am glad to be off of that plane.  How are you?" SHE asked.

     "I'm good.  Let me get that for you," I said.

     I motioned to HER larger bags and grabbed them up while SHE handled HER carry on.  I was pretty new to the city but we were gonna be cool; that's why GPS is a handy tool.  We were on our way after I found my truck; yes that's right found my truck, gimme a break it's a huge airport.  My place was about a 40 minute ride from there so we passed through a good portion of the city.

     "So what would you like to eat for dinner?" I asked.

     "It doesn't matter to me; something good," SHE replied.

     "Are you gonna cook for me?" SHE asked.

     "Not tonight. I figured we would grab something on the way back home if that's cool?" I explained.

     "That's perfect! I wanna get to your place and get settled in," SHE said.

One and ONLY...

     Even remembering as far back as my childhood, Thanksgiving was a good time.  My MOM and my older sisters always hooked up some great food.  The holiday itself lands on the fourth Thursday in November so the date changes from year to year.  One of the most special things about it, is the fact that Thanksgiving Day lands on my birthday about every six years or so.  Even though we had a big dinner, we would still make the rounds.  We would always visit my Grandmother's house and act a fool with my cousins.  Then, we would go to my Great Aunt's house and cut up there too.  Needless to say, we always had fun and went back home full.  Mmmmm, sweet potato pie! 
     It was the day before HER flight and I was excited.  We had already met so I knew more or less what to expect.  SHE was due to land in the early evening so that was cool.  I'm looking forward to see how SHE acts more and more.  I mean the real HER; not the I'm trying to make a good impression cause I like you HER.  SHE called me as SHE was boarding the plane.

     "Hello, YOU ready for your flight?" I asked.
     "Yesss!  I'm actually walking to the plane right now," SHE replied.
     "Kool!  Well, I hope you have a good and safe flight.  I will be there when YOU land," I reassured HER.
     "You better be.  Thank you and I can't wait to see you.  I will call you before I board my next plane," SHE said.
     "Alright.  See you in a few hours.  Bye!" I said.

     If we are gonna be serious in the future, then SHE is gonna have to totally drop that dumb ass.  Of course I could just have HER around for a piece of ass every now and then but that's not what I'm looking for; never have.  My last relationship was kinda screwy so I really didn't want a repeat.  A few unexpected things popped up like she had a couple of kids that she didn't mention, which wasn't the kicker.  Her head wasn't on too tight and more.  Being around HER should tell me a lot.  We shall see.  I'm open to different things but I need a one man woman.  I know what SHE has told me but ACTIONS mean the world to me...
    

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

     So it was official, the week of Thanksgiving was to be our second meeting.  Thanks to Skype, we had logged many hours of video chat together.  SHE was flying in and I was gonna pick HER up at the airport.  I just recently moved here and the place that I was renting didn't have a stove.  We had decided that we were going to cook Thanksgiving dinner together so I bought a stove.  Before, it was never too important because I am a bachelor and I eat out more often than I'd like to admit.  Don't get me wrong, I like to cook but cooking for one sometimes feels like overkill.
     Yes, you guessed it, I went ahead and ordered some hot panties from Victoria's Secret and they were waiting on HER cute little ass.  I was looking forward to talking, laughing, and cuddling with HER.  I decided to call HER up the day that I received my "package" cause SHE was on my mind. 
    
     "Hello," SHE answered.
     "Hello Brownie.  How are you doing?" I asked.
     "I'm good.  It's almost someone's birthday," SHE added.
     "Yeah... Are you ready for your flight?" I asked.
     "Yes I'm excited! Do you remember what time my flight lands?" SHE asked.
     "Of course I do and I am gonna be waiting outside in the parking lot when you arrive," I joked because when I went to see HER, SHE was outside.
     "You're funny.  You better be waiting for me," SHE said.
     "Yeah, yeah , yeah...  I hear you.  Hey I bought a stove so if you want to cook, we can," I told HER.
     "Cool!  Do you still want to cook?" SHE asked.
     "Hmmm let's see.  Guess what?" I replied.
     "What?" SHE asked.
     "Black Santa came by. He's a crazy guy," I said.
     I have always played with HER like that saying Black Santa came to let HER know that i got HER something; I mean that he did.  Why Black Santa?  Well, you know...
     "What color panties are you wearing?" I asked.
     "Let me see.  I am wearing those cute blue leopard print ones," SHE said.
     "I wanna see.  Send me a pic," I said.
    
     There are several of the ones that I got HER that make me horny when I see HER in them.  I loved getting pictures of HER in cute panties.  They all looked good but sometimes SHE catches just the right pose that makes me wanna bone HER.  Mmmmm... the way those panties fit HER.  I can't wait til SHE's here...

Friend or FOE???

     So that was the MEETING and it went as good as it could have possibly.  I definitely wanted to meet again and see what might be.  SHE is very inconsistent!  When i say that I mean SHE likes me one day, then for no apparent reason, has a bad day and takes things out on me.  I think because SHE is scared to attack the SOURCE of HER problems.  I have done nothing but try to help HER and make HER feel good in every way.  Maybe SHE takes that for granted....I don't know.  So we continued to talk.  We continued to have sexy time on the phone too.  I really enjoyed that with HER and I think SHE did with me.  I say I think because SHE would deny me and make up excuses not to play.  The way I see it, if you are not feeling it and you know the other person is, then you should definitely cash in that rain check.  The other person shouldn't have to beg to show you affection.  Eventually, that will sour our sexy time.  I tried to explain to HER how I felt and SHE just downplayed it or ignored it all together.  I wonder if SHE will notice when, because of HER changing, our sexy time and life changes?  I wonder if SHE will blame me?  We were planning our second meeting for around the time of my birthday which happens to land near Thanksgiving; some years it is Thanksgiving Day!  Every time SHE had a bad day with jerk off or SHE got hassled by anyone else, I was there to talk to HER until the wee hours and let HER know that it was alright.  All I have ever tried to do is make HER feel better and special.  I was very sexually attracted to HER but after being turned down, for even phone play, that feeling starts to fade a little.  Why would a woman not want to be desired?  Oh well...  I picked out some more cute panties that i know SHE would look good in.  When you are there for support, even when you are busy at work, and care about someone's well being, it's a slap in the face when they complain or take their bad luck out on you.  I'm NOT perfect but I dare you to find better!  Thanksgiving is coming and I am excited to see HER.  SHE is coming to me this time so I want HER to be comfortable and enjoy HER time here...

When Did YOU Lose YOUR Sprirt???

     How can we trust people with our lives that we can’t trust with our heart?  The human heart is one of the deepest organs in our bodies and the closest to our souls.  Once someone has willingly and repeatedly cheated on us, they will NEVER stop just as long as we accept it.  Nobody wants to be reminded that they aren’t attractive by their mate so it’s easy to understand the psyche behind it.  Denial keeps us from feeling the pain and hurt of not being wanted and so the cycle continues until someone explodes in rage.  I have always been a realist and I understand that habitual cheaters will not stop.  There’s always going to be someone better.  People are fooled by a gift or flowers or a kind word.  After such gestures and they accept the horrible behavior, things go back to the unloving and unromantic relationship.  Time and time again this has happened.  How can a strong and opinionated woman be turned into a frightened coward?  I don’t know but I do know that people always have different options.  I only assume that these women feel that they can’t do any better than a lying cheat or that because their spouse chose many different women, they feel undesirable.  Either way it’s sad.  I never thought of my BROWNIE as a coward but what holds HER back from taking back HER dignity?  It has to be denial or fear of nobody wanting them.  Probably imbedded into HER head by HER spouse; statements like nobody else will love you like this or nobody else can provide for you like this.  Or maybe even this is a sign we should be together while all along he is plotting his next rendezvous.  I felt sorry for HER just as much as I wanted to protect HER from all of this hurt.  She didn’t have to put HERSELF through this in order to feel special or important.  Only to be reminded a few months later that she is less than second best when he cheats again.  What a horrible man to destroy a woman from the inside out and how selfish to not give HER a chance to move on and find happiness.  The ONLY one that can help HER is HERSELF.  She has to realize and accept that he did these things to HER and he did the repeatedly without conscience.  SHE has to believe that SHE deserves better before SHE can move on.  I feel sorry for YOU BROWNIE and I won’t give up on YOUR desire and fight in YOU to be better and do better than someone who disrespects YOU and will always cheat.  Brownie… Brownie you are way better than that so how did YOU get lost and consumed in this???  I know YOU can get out of this horrible relationship.  This can't be what YOU want...  There's no way that YOU want or will accept a cheating husband.